It's been a long time

It's been a long since I felt the sadness...I am happy for her that she finally found someone else that can be with her.. I myself got a partner with me, but things just didn't seem to be okay for me. I am still feeling the anger and I force myself to avoid from them. I just can't accept the fact that I can see them. I ran off and I start to write this blog. I love writing blog as I could able to release my feelings and thoughts in my mind. I didn't like to tell my story to people because it wasn't any good to say it. I just hope this feeling will just disappear. I think I am just being too foolish, but people have feelings and that's who I am. I have a soft heart and sensitive, at least I know that I care to know about someone else feelings. I don't love her anymore but I just can't accept the fact. I have seen many and been to many relationship but this relationship is the one that I could not let go easily.

Day 21 September 2013,

The day that everything should be going thru...I had put efforts on myself to work better but every time I failed to do so. There is always a reason that why am I not improving. I know exactly the mistake but I keep on making the same mistake over and over again. I hate myself for that because I have made the same mistake. I wasted my time in this unnecessary thoughts and I hate myself doing it. I realize that I love to write and especially in English. I like to write and read books. It's always calm myself down. I still remember reading a book on how to forget your EX. I spend USD49 for the book and it really help me a lot because I realize the mistake I had done and what is the reason of the relationship failed. Listening to songs are one of the best past time for me, it not only calms me down but also help me to understand that I had done my best. I should focus on my future because I must not fail again.

Time 08:54PM ,

This is the time that everything starts to change even though I had tried my best. If the past doesn't go, then how does the new future comes in? I always like to be a good person because I like to do good deeds. I am someone who like to cares about other feelings but sometimes this is my weakness. It is time to go back but I just like to stay at a coffee shop and listening to my favorite songs. I have actually met someone that I knew that she could be with me till the end. She is the right one but it's just me with the silly mind.