Part A
In this moment, I was thinking that what I had been learning and experience during these few years in the past. I realize that I learn something that I am different in many ways. The one thing that i could think of being different a lot is that being in love of relationship. Last time i will be crazy about it and always thinking the best for her and giving everything to her but when time passes and you realize that each relationship you have, you will change some how, it might be your attitude towards the girlfriend. You might be cold to her sometimes as like your ex did that style to you before. It seems that you are following back the way of how she treat you even though you don't admit that you had done so. I would still remember the girl that i once had put a lot of effort on it and to be with her, but time seems to be fast to change as i had given up by that time during the separation because i will think that i do not have the chance and fate being with her and so it happens, even though i had been her secret best friend for so many years...she remind me of growing up and things had changed, because of this i slowly changed my life style to be better and useful for myself. "Through years that i will get by remembering all the times that she was inside my head." Now, i had another thought, why didn't i go find her back and waited for her in those times?? i had a question for myself that why didn't i had waited..i had think for a long time..i knew i was a coward because i always put those impossible answer for myself..i don't even trust myself that i could do it..and it really happens..during these few years, i suddenly saw something in web, that she had posted, the first thing i had ever did was to find her, i wanted to know what happened to her and help her because i had the feeling back, but i had always give an excuse because i had promised to her to be by her side, and was that really what i really think of??? this is another question that i had myself..was it really that simple?? it was not the first time at all...it had been some times that happen but i never knew what i can do..i just knew that it is very important that i must be by her side even though it takes my time..but recently this time, i knew she had some problems, i had message her, i chatted with her because she had problems, i told her.."everything be alright geh..dun worri..cheer up~" and this magic word really helps her cause after i had finish chatted with her, some time later, she never reply me anymore then by that moment, i knew she had settled the problem with her boyfriend and everything turns alright as i had said...does this mean that i still had feelings for her or not?? i do not know and i do not want to know it either because i think if you really had the feeling for that someone, you would want her to be happy in the end but not the sad ending part. It may seem that you had never let go of that feeling but i m still happy with it as i knew there is someone better and greater to be by her side. I am just only a prayer's book when someone needs someone to talk to and an example of talking to GOD and telling all the problems to GOD. I would had ask myself, why can i stay go being hidden as a secret best friend through out this few years, i think its better for her to avoid misunderstanding problems for her. Misunderstanding is not good thing to happens to couples as it will result to separation.
Part B
There is once that i had knew a girl that she wasn't that perfect in any way, but i do not mind at all, because i would had thought that mabye that not that popular girl might be a problem as many fans(guys) will snatch it from me..but i was wrong...the days i had with her has been one of my happy days as i had received before any gifts from my loved ones before..i think that this was the girl that finally that would be the someone who willing stay with me..but it wasn't cause i had done many mistake that a boyfriend should not had done..its the minor mistake that must be avoid in the relationship..because of money and fame that i always had given her..i had fail because this was the part that i was always being that way in the past even though being with her. It was the stupid mistake i had always been doing..but its too late already as i had given her money and everything also had give what ever she wants. I still remember the day she had left me, i was very angry as i always given myself an excuse that she had someone else with her, but does really true about it, i think yes because of the fans(guys) around her..i do not trust her anymore..in this time..i knew that trust is very important for couples to learn because if you do not trust him or her..you will lost him or her someday because of the misunderstanding that happens. During these few years, i knew she had someone else, i could see that she is happy and i never find her at all because i don't that it was necessary for me to be there anymore..i will feel ashamed to show up as well...
Part C
This happens when i starting doing my school holidays work..i knew a girl in work, at first sight i knew she had a boyfriend, but i remember i had ask her and she say no, but after some time, she had tell the truth that she has a boyfriend..by this moment, i knew that this type of girl would not be a good girlfriend and it was because she do not want anyone to know about it, i experience this when my previous girlfriend did that to me, she would tell other guys that she do not have a boyfriend but she actually has one..this is the one part that makes me sad that i wasn't important at all...but get back to story..then i had insists that how long you had been with your boyfriend?? then she had answer 3 years..then the moment i had think of, umm..her boy friend surely would be a good guy and it turns out ya..but i just knew her a few days only but she told me she liked me and do not like her boyfriend that much..the moment that she says that, i knew that she wasn't good at all because she won't be staying in the long relationship type as just that guy can control it that long...not long she told me that she had been in triangle relationship 2 times...as i think of being clever..i try to be with her..then someday she had quarrel with her boyfriend and i was in the triangle relationship as well...and all this time i always tell myself i would not be the 3rd party at all because bad luck would come to me in the following and it really happens..because i was doing something that i would not had done and it wasn't my type to do that..i like being a good guy but maybe because time changes as i want to be someone different..then when there is a time for her choose between him and me..i had told her that..let's wait till the 31st of December..if it would be a full moon then we have fate of being together..by that day..there is really a full moon..and i had told myself that it was fate...but through months of being together..i had realize that she had been talking with her ex and seeing each other for some time...she had cheated me and she given excuses that she needed to and somethings that she needed him to help..i don't think i will believe that because of my previous relationship experience..not long after that..she breakup with me..after some time..she came back to me and say a lot of excuse that she didn't mean it and wanted to be with me and really love me..i will think that it is bullshit already because she is the one who want to go away and now coming back for me..its not the first time that happen..so during the last time..i had rejected her..i say that i do not trust her anymore..i do not want her anymore..i give her an excuse that i want to focus on my studies and work..after that..the next day..her ex call me and start scolding me and sending bullshit sms to me that saying cursing me and that...the moment i saw that he will do that then i knew that she had been contacting her with her this time..and i do not want to reply any of those things..i just delete it and close the call..i knew he wanted to be a hero for her...and i think that it might be a good chance..i will let him write whatever he wants..if it will give him a chance back to her..why not give people chance if he thinks that it is very important for him..but i will not curse anyone at all..everyone is different and i don't that even though you don't get him or her because she or he treat you bad..i don't think cursing will help at all..i think it will give you bad luck instead...so i just let it be and put it as memory of something i had learn in the past...as long as there is a balance then it is ok...
Conclusion
1. Never ever hide anything from your loved ones..
2. Be honest!
3. Trust him or her because you might never knew the truth...
4. If you like someone..be brave to tell him or her...but if he or she got partner..please don't disturb..bad luck will come to you..
5. Always hope your loved ones to be happy but not the sad ending..this will give you a pure heart to yourself..
6. Don't ever betray your loved ones because you will get bad luck someday...
7. Love your loved ones with true heart and don't play relationships..you will get nothing in the end..
8. Don't spoil her or him...
9. Introduce your loved ones to your friends so that it shows that he or she is important and you want her or him to know about your friends around...
10. Good luck to anyone who are in single or in relationship..don't ever give up..you might never know the future...
