Feelings
A lot had happen recently, experience and feelings. I started working and everything seems to be different, I see something different in life. I enjoyed my job but anyhow I am not satisfied with it. I want to climb higher but there is a saying that “If do not have a big head, then don’t wear it on the small head” or “The higher you climb, the easier you will fall down” . Feelings of depressed but the only thing I can do is just move on and do my part. I had just got everything I needed but I still feel unsatisfied. Feelings are just an emotion that only takes part in life. Every day when I go to work, I will like to drive far away so that I can listen to my IPod while walking to my working place. I feel relax while doing that after work every night.
I finally got myself a new laptop. Even though it’s new but I got it was because I needed it badly for my job. Life isn’t easy because there are many things that I can’t do and there are rules. I had a bad dream few days ago and I never expected that I will dream about it. When I dream, dreams came true and I didn’t want that to happen. The worst part is that I still remember every detail about the dream. I do feel tired but there is no one that I can talk to. Sometimes when you knew that you talk too much, people will start giving you hints and you knew you should stop talking. That is the part that you knew, what you think was eventually not important.
When I am driving back home, I feel that I am tired and frustrated. I like to hear old songs that have romantic feeling. Although it was old but it has meaning for me. It will ease my stress but I will think a lot of my previous past that I do not want to think about. I want to a trip to somewhere that is peaceful and I can forget about the past. Sometimes past is a just a matter of growing up. It might also lead to frustration.
Love is something I must avoid right now. Loving someone might end up forever but being with one another may not lead to eternity. When you put full efforts on it, you mustn’t expect the same from others. It might only lead sadness and maybe you end hurting yourself. I am not being happy anymore like usual.
There are many things that I can’t talk about. There are many rules that I can’t break.
