New Year Story 2012
Chapter 1 - The new beginning
A day that I could not forget, everything was in place and working fine that it should be. It has been 22 years that I am still celebrating the new year eve on my own alone without anyone by my side. It has been a normal pass time for me whether to celebrate it or not to celebrate it. Every time you knew that there would be a chance, you will hold tight on the chance but eventually, it will get away from it. Everyone has their hard time in protecting their relationship but so do I. I try to protect mine in the past, I learned that holding tight will only have side effects but when I try to let go, it will eventually went off easily. This year, I try to hold firmly because I don't want to lose the chance again but it seems to be different. I am afraid of losing it again, but i slowly lost my courage because I always lose. I knew that this time the relationship will be very different because I can feel it and she was the perfect one for me. Even though I knew that she is the perfect one for me, there will be always side effects and sacrifices. Indeed, there are and its difficult for me to accept it.
I just want to live in a simple and happy life. I just want things to be simple, having a relationship that you love so much and can hang out like normal couples do but there are always restriction in the path. I can't have a simple life, and I can't ask her to do something bad. If i would ask her to do that, I will never forgive myself because I knew myself well. Some times when we think about it, that path is usually the right choice to do it because it happens only once. I wanted to tell her, if you take that choice and you did that bad choice, I am willing to take the bad thing that will happen to you. I am willing to stand in front and get that bad thing for you because I knew that you did it just for me. Everyone has a choice, but my choice is for you. Tears may be dripping down but the tears are for you because I do care about it.
I remember I used to sing a song to you, because I wanted to tell you a love story that is happening right now, a fairy tale that never existed and you never believe in it before but it do happens because I wanted to make it become real and you really can feel that love.
帮你记得
我像个傻瓜傻傻的爱你但没想过后果。。我重来没想过为什么要为你付出但我只知道我真的爱上了你。。爱你可以想到很简单但其实一点都不简单因为我已经开始慢慢把我的心送给你了。。就算有多累，我还是会对着你笑因为你让我的世界变得跟美丽。。不知道你会不会慢慢的根喜欢傻瓜呢？
