24.12.2008
time jz comes so fast....
at 1st i was thinkin tat mabe i wont b celebrating christmass alone...
early in the morning..i woke up early..
i prepared everything ready well...
all was like perfect...
bt thn the time is short..
i called..
waited n waited...
it took veli long time b4 she could had picked it up...
at last...
she picked it up..bt the time was already late..
by thn..i jz was down there..in the car..waiting..
thn she came out...
bt i gt sad feeling..i dunno wat was it at 1st..
bt my six sense jz tell me so..
she didnt wear as v promise v would do...
bt i didnt mind a lot..coz mabe her time was kinda packed..
thn...
i tot mabe i wil gt a present?
bt no..i dun hav..
by thn..whn v were on our way 2 to gai gai..
whn on the way..
v didnt talk much..
it was a silence...
until v reach there..
i tot mabe she will get me a present jz bcoz 2 say soli 2 me..tat cant accompany me..
at nite..
bt she didnt...
v went into shops...
she was jz bz choosing a gift 4 her fren...
bt the person she care n thinkin wasn't me...
actually..
i was kinda angry n sad...
bt i jz dunno wat else i can speak out anymore...
after the long walk...
it was time 2 go back...
she knew tat i was havin time problem..coz i still gt alot of things 2 take care of...
bt she seems like doesnt bother about it at all..
all she cares was hers..her time...
her own things...
bt nv think of me b4...
i was being a fool...
y should i being good 2 her since she is like tat 2 me..
i cant speak 4 myself..
i jz feel so out...
sometimes i saw my frenz..
thy r so happy wif their partner..
i jz feel so...
jealous~
whn she gt bak 2 her skool..
i send her a sms...
"MERRY CHRISTMASS!"
bt she didnt reply me..
i had already knw the answer...
bt i jz cant face it..
even though i try nt 2 sms her or call her..
bt she would nt find me at all...
she would rather find her frenz thn finding me..
after all wat i been through wif her..
she nv even care...
so tis year christmass..i was goin alone...
bt even though it end up wif frenz goin neway there..
bt it jz seems so lonely 4 me..
coz all i wan was..being wif my loves ones..
bt i jz cant hav tat kind of gift..
i reali gt no more strength 4 anything..
i jz feelin so tired...
n i cant even wan to continue 2 anywhere at all...
mabe next year i could hav a happy christmass?
nobody knws..bt i jz wish i would..>.<
CAUSE I BELIEVE...
time jz comes so fast....
at 1st i was thinkin tat mabe i wont b celebrating christmass alone...
early in the morning..i woke up early..
i prepared everything ready well...
all was like perfect...
bt thn the time is short..
i called..
waited n waited...
it took veli long time b4 she could had picked it up...
at last...
she picked it up..bt the time was already late..
by thn..i jz was down there..in the car..waiting..
thn she came out...
bt i gt sad feeling..i dunno wat was it at 1st..
bt my six sense jz tell me so..
she didnt wear as v promise v would do...
bt i didnt mind a lot..coz mabe her time was kinda packed..
thn...
i tot mabe i wil gt a present?
bt no..i dun hav..
by thn..whn v were on our way 2 to gai gai..
whn on the way..
v didnt talk much..
it was a silence...
until v reach there..
i tot mabe she will get me a present jz bcoz 2 say soli 2 me..tat cant accompany me..
at nite..
bt she didnt...
v went into shops...
she was jz bz choosing a gift 4 her fren...
bt the person she care n thinkin wasn't me...
actually..
i was kinda angry n sad...
bt i jz dunno wat else i can speak out anymore...
after the long walk...
it was time 2 go back...
she knew tat i was havin time problem..coz i still gt alot of things 2 take care of...
bt she seems like doesnt bother about it at all..
all she cares was hers..her time...
her own things...
bt nv think of me b4...
i was being a fool...
y should i being good 2 her since she is like tat 2 me..
i cant speak 4 myself..
i jz feel so out...
sometimes i saw my frenz..
thy r so happy wif their partner..
i jz feel so...
jealous~
whn she gt bak 2 her skool..
i send her a sms...
"MERRY CHRISTMASS!"
bt she didnt reply me..
i had already knw the answer...
bt i jz cant face it..
even though i try nt 2 sms her or call her..
bt she would nt find me at all...
she would rather find her frenz thn finding me..
after all wat i been through wif her..
she nv even care...
so tis year christmass..i was goin alone...
bt even though it end up wif frenz goin neway there..
bt it jz seems so lonely 4 me..
coz all i wan was..being wif my loves ones..
bt i jz cant hav tat kind of gift..
i reali gt no more strength 4 anything..
i jz feelin so tired...
n i cant even wan to continue 2 anywhere at all...
mabe next year i could hav a happy christmass?
nobody knws..bt i jz wish i would..>.<
CAUSE I BELIEVE...
幸福不滅 - 羅志祥alan luo
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