pUzZLeeee~~~>.<

sOmEtiMeS i waS jZ tHinKin~

爱情不能做比较

wAs It i lEt 2 mUch le...or IsSIt i nt good enuF~~~

HaIZzzz....

whenever u think everything will b alrite tat time and definetly like everythings is perfect 2 u at 1st...it will be wrong...coz the more u wan it will wont come 2 u at all...i oNce try...bt it nv went out rite..

i still remember once tat v had been 2gather...i feel happy n didnt think much coz i didnt wan had happen b4..coz i wan 4get all about the past that happen~....

tHe 1st time i was wif her, it was at the moment quite perfectly n everything was goin smoothly..

till...

1 day, she changed....it was nv like b4........

till tat she told me tat i was treating her badly during those days....

i didnt realise i was like tat....

n she jz treat me like i treated her......

kinda like it at all...

so i jz didnt say much..bt i continue the best i can do 4 her....

everything jz 4 her own good...

duRing these days....

she sTarted coLlEge......

she was totally different like i didnt knw...

v less meet...v less talk...

it was like as there is no more feel 4 her 2 me....

i didnt complain....

i think it was jz me who was wrong oni n thinking 2 much...

bt its nt..coz she told me tat thy r guyz chasing after her..

i was kinda angry n afraid at 1st bcoz i scare i will lost her..........

bt she told me she wont change her heart...

bt its jz a cheer up sentence...

bcoz i knw...whenever some1 says tis...it is jz lie...

i usually listen 2 music...the lyrics was givin miracle n chances...

bt its useless....

CoZ she...nv care about me...

1day..she went oout 2 the beach wif her frenz...

she told me she will sms me once she reach there....

bt she didnt...instead she play wif her college frenz...

by the mean time...i was bz calling her n sms her n i was worry about her..

i didnt knw wat 2 do at all....i tot she mabe havin some trouble or anything...

bt she nv told me..until i call her frenz...

a number tat i saw was a female name.......

i call...n after tat its a guy who pick it up...

i was thinkin..givin reason 2 myself say tat it mabe was a gal num..bt her guyz frenz pick it up 4 her or so ever...

bt i didnt care..i jz ask was her there...thn he pass it 2 her...

she told me she was bz...n she left her hp in the room...

n gt no time 2 reply me...

i was thinkin in mind

"HeY! i m ur bf leh...y dun u jz let me tat u arrive n will b bz thn mai can le..."

bt she didnt...

eversince thn she change a lot..even though she reach home le..

she nv care 2 let me knw..instead i call again..

n her sis jz pick n say..she been long time de..n nw is sleepin...

i jz say..."Ohhz..thn nvm le.."

after i hang up the phone..i was thinkin..m i jz thinkin 2 much or i didnt care about her feelins?

or m i being 2 busy 2 disturb her private life...

so i jz told myself..it was my fault...

i should'nt disturb her 2 much if nt things will nt work out rite...

tiLl...when she gt college frenz..it seems tat i m invisible 2 her le...

she jz minds her frenz more thn i do...

i was like in her heart...0%...nt a important status...

she treated her frenz more care bt 2 me was jz like i m nt there.....

i dun mind about hw she treated me..coz i knw...

love doesnt have any % coz no matter 2 treat who good or bad it doesnt matter at all...

till i found tat she was usually sms wif guyz tat were chasing after her...i was quite angry..she even takes pic wif thm...n puttin out...bt mine wif her was jz like secret..it wasnt important at all..

she even says..takin pic wif me..was jz like damn ugly...

i was hurt...bt nt jz oni tat..she says tat she alone takes pic is much more better...

ThEre are people saying tat...usually a drunk person talkin out the sentence was real n didnt lie...

she told me.."I DUN WAN U ANYMORE"

i was even hurter...bt i didnt mind..i still continue 2 help her clear things coz i knw i muz nt mind tat 1st...

if a couple says tat..issit veli hurt as there were many long swords struck against ur heart over n over again...

i jz cant stand it..coz i did secret cry inside my heart..i cant let ppl knw tat i cry out...

all it doesnt matter anymore...

even though she outside wif another guy..i wont b able 2 knw at all...

coz she been keepin secrets like deleting all her sms n call out or call in numbers...

so that i cant find out....bt feel is jz comin faster n faster...

i nv care anymore...

i dun wan think anymore...if she ever leave me...

wat do i do?

i jz can say..i dunno...

love cannot be weight......even though u wif her or him hw long time...its jz useless...

nobody can reali predict the future....

i jz wan 2 say..i still love her...i nv change my heart at all.....

coz tat is wat love is about....i knw...hw it feels...it some1 get tis matter...

i jz can say that...

jz pretend u dunno anything...jz continue wif wat u r doin....

i even try gifts..bt its nt jz the same...

frenzz always say...its her lost oni if she doesnt appreciate u...i believe...

bt tat is tat...u wont able 2 feel the person who r being hurt....u wont able 2 understand...

any1 has it own story..bt it jz in different script...

the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other