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SomeTimEs LoVe cAn b plaYfull...

When u r missing some1...

u will think of calling her/him...

u will aso wondering wat she/he is doin....

bt whN u r holding ur hp n clickin her/his num...

u will jz suddenly feel nt like calling coz...

u worry tat u worry disturb her/him....

bt whn u reali did call...

n u hear the "tot" "tot"...

n nobody answer tat time...

u will b thinkin tat...

"Wat is she/he doing leh?BZ?"

bt thn at the same time...

u will b thinkin tat is she/he bz wif another person?or nt?

many things will automatically comes into ur mind...

many reason...

bt last whn tat some1...told u tat..

i was bz doin my project..i was eating...i was in the toilet...i didnt hear it rang...

thn u will feel relieved...

bt some ppl wont..coz u wont wat thy r doin at tat time..mabe she/he lied?

ppl used 2 say...u should believe in her/him...

bt hw could i possible believe if she/he lied 2 me b4....

it's all QUESTION!

sometimes i do think..wat if she/he didnt lied b4..

will i believe her/his words?

i dunno the answer..bcoz the 1 who feel it will knw...

i dunno hw 2 say it...bt i dun think everything will feel alrite..

i came across a fren...

he was quite a lucky fellow...

he once had love problems..n it caused him 2 fell 2 deep of his heart...

bt thn he was lucky..tat he found some1 who will appreciated him...

he was nt pure handsome,rich,knowledge...

bt he was good wif frenz...he aso treats his gf well taken care...

bt somebody wif tat kind of life couldn't have nice n caring gf as his...

coz every1 is different..

u cant hav a happy days like he could..even though he was nt all perfect...

"once upon a time"

tis was fairy tales story..

n it usually end up wif

"and they lived happily ever after..."

it was a lied!

coz nt ever1 can have tat kind of sentence in their script....

NO ONE!

unless u hav a nice script...

even though hw hard i work 4...n hw much i given out..

its useless...

coz i nv care 2 take wat is mine...

n mabe bcoz i was being 2 kind...

i letting her/him standing a top my head....

i do wish i get my own nice script...

BUT WHY?!

y muz i nt have it?

did i do any wrong in my past?

y muz she/he treat me like tat?

y muz everything go away frm me?

ITS NOT FAIR!

i care so much!

i even did the stupiest things i wont do...

bt i did...

whn her/his hp no credit..

i will jz purposely go nearby shops or far away jz 2 top up 4 her/him...

whn i m shopping wif her/him...

she/he like something..

i will jz later on..buy it..thn suprise her/him..

y muz i do all tis?

I DUNNO....

bt 1 thing i m sure tat...i knw she/he like it...

i wan her/him 2 b happy...

i wan give all the happiness i can 2 her/him....

even though i had hard time saving n earning those money...

bt 4 me its like worth it...

bt 4 other ppl...they r jz thinking..

STUPID!

i reali dunno wat i can say...

even though...

a expensive western restaurant...

u knw u wont go those place coz its expensive n its over ur budget..

bt u didnt mind..u jz save ur money though out the month without havin ur meals bt everyday...

u r havin a piece of bread n water...

u save the money jz 4 her/him...

thy wont knw..thy r jz takin u as dieting...

bt thy nv knw tat...

thy r destroying themselves instead jz wan 2 giv happiness n nicest things 2 there loved ones...

nt jz oni tat...

whn u doin something reali bz...

n she/he called..say..fetch me home can mah?

u will jz suddenly say...YES!

without minding ur things..u came out..jz 2 fetch her home...

bt she/he didnt tat...actually u r quite bz at moment..

bt after she/he reach home...thy wont say anything..jz leave the car..

n back inside the home...

u will jz stupid outside as u go back 2 ur place..

n u will b scolded by ur boss or watever...

she/he wont sms u telling tat sorry tat takes ur time...

NO!

it wont do...

coz thy wont do it...

thy dun appreciate whoever u r or wat u did...

life is like tat..

4 once...

i loved some1 deeply...bt she wont care about me at all...

at 1st...she used 2 b care..bt its a normal care..

all i wan is a love care..

a secure care...bt she didnt giv...

always saying i nt enuf....

i jz wonder...did i do anything wrong?y muz u treat me like tat way...

last time...my frenz used 2 say...hw can u wif tis kind of gal...

saying..she is nt perfect nor anything..bt..

i didnt mind...

coz i knw someday..she can b pretty...

n she reali did improve..coz i help her a lot..

i buy her tis n tat..n giving advice n hw 2 take care 4 her skin...

bt once she is pretty..she is different...

she looks down at u...

coz i m fat...ugly....stupid....poor...

so i jz try 2 diet..earn more money...

bt wat is result..nthg...

coz she had changed...

she is nt the gal tat used once 2 b...

u had made some1 who gt confidents on herself...bt on u anymore...

my best fren always ask..hw r u wif her ar?

i will jz say..its ok ar...

bt he did knw tat i m nt ok...

coz he knew me long time...n he knws tat bcoz of my voice reaction...

bt wat 2 do?

its still the same...

1 day...

she did told me she like piano...n wanted 2 learn...

thn i quickly...find a keyboard...

coz i knw keyboard n piano r quite gt relationship..

so i learned n learned without her knowing..coz i wanted 2 play a song 2 her....

i dunno i still gt the chance anot...

bt i do hope...i can!

coz i wan her 2 my 1st person 2 hear me play a romantic song 2 her...

mabe i hav play?

or nt?

everything is so complicated rite here...

i do hope someday...everythin will b alrite..i wan everything b happy...

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